I've unfortunately found myself in a funk. Which is a lame way to truly start this creature.
My 25th birthday is quickly approaching, 3 days away at that. Typically I would be absolutely delighted, have all of my plans made and I would be bracing for an awesome party. This year is different, there is no excitement.
I think that part of it is because I find myself in a situation that I am all to familiar with. I have had plenty of friends move away, and for some reason I always get exceedingly fixated on it. It almost always means the imminent demise of our friendship, not immediately, a gradual trickle over time. We eventually become strangers, awkward acquaintances if you will.
I've gone through this process twice before, and I'm on the verge of it happening again. Though, if outright asked both of these friends would deny that it has happened, but I know that they have moved on with their lives, that is how the world turns.
This one will have a bigger impact than the others, this friend has been my role model for how to live my life, though she's probably completely unaware.
Bleh.
It hurts my heart too much to keep talking about it.
I'll be on vacation soon enough, I'll be able to consume myself in reading, and it will be absolutely delightful.
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